When I Die

When I die
Don't cry for me
When I die
Don't smile for me
I may go to
A better place or not
But I don't want
You near me
I don't want to see your radiant smile
And remember you don't want me
I don't want to see your beautiful heart
That doesn't beat for me
I don't want to hear your mind's beautiful thoughts
That never think of me
Alone I am
An island I want to be
But one thing I know and regret
Is that I really love you
And wish that feeling wasn't within me